Well, my mommy calls me last night at like 12:30 which is very uncharacteristic of her since she has to get up at like 5 in the morning. I answer and she says "I love You" I didnt even say I love you back~ I knew something was wrong. I said whats wrong? I could tell she was crying. She said she had some bad news (the same line she opened up w/when breaking the news to me about my grandfather's and godfather's deaths). I started to panic and cry before she told me. I was so scared. I thought something had happened to one of my other grandparents or my brothers.....oh geez~so many awful thoughts ran through my head. When she told me it was my cousin Kurt, I was shocked. He is the same age as me. He was my family buddy growing up. Evidently, he got in a wreck Saturday morning. His family (my mom's oldest brother is his dad) owns part of a mountain in New York. I guess he was leaving the house, going down their long mountain driveway and lost control. He wasnt wearing his seatbelt! If he had been, he would have probably lived seeings how his only injury, other than the head injuries he got from the windsheild, was a broken rib. THey found him and he was put on life support but he was brain dead. They pulled the plug last night. I am so scared for my family. My aunt apparently is in a walking coma and they are afraid that my retired general uncle is going to kill himself. It's so scary. My family on my mom's side is so tight ~ everyone lives in new york and they see each other all year long. I know this is hitting everyone extremely hard. Please keep them in your prayers.
Right now, I feel so sad. It isnt because he was my best friend~we havent seen each other in a few years. Part of it is because I know how hard this is for my family. We already lost my grandpa this year and my grandmother died a few years back. I hate that they are going through this. Another part of me is scared because he was so young. It really put some things into perspective for me. It made me realize I'm not invinsible. Life really is a precious thing.
These past few years have really sucked. I hate all this dying. First my great aunt , then my godfather. Then my friend David. This year my papa, travis' papa and now kurt. I cant deal with this. It's so depressing.
I prayed last night for real. This is one of those times when I really want to believe that there is a heaven~ I want to believe Kurt is going to a better place. I want to believe that he's going to be w/grandma and papa. I really do.
Well, I have to get ready for class. I hope everyone has a good day and please pray for my family, if that's your thing.
~Lacey

Well, my thanksgiving was absolutely wonderful! I missed my grandparents but other than that, it was perfect. There were a few setbacks leading up to it, however. We tried to leave Wednesday night and Travis' car decided to blow a hose never walmart in garner. So we had to get towed back to my grandparents house ~ ON THE OTHER SIDE OF FAYETTEVILLE!!! We had to ride w/the tow truck guy but that's okay cuz he wasnt too bad.We stayed at my grandparents house and slept on the hardwood floor~i don't know what our plans were. The next day was turkey day~ my mom made so much food. It was ridiculous. We sat around and watched movies all day which was nice. I love my family.
That night me, trav, and my brothers stayed at my grandparents house. I'd forgotten how much I hate to babysitt. Friday we fixed the car and did a little bit of shopping. My daddys band played at the mash house in fayetteville so we went to see that. After the show, we went back to my grandparents. We had some wine, along w/other party favors we watched some adult television and had a very romantic night. we didnt go to bed until 6 am But anyway...... the next morning I had a horrible hangover. FROM WINE! I couldnt believe it. My grandparents came back while we were still sleeping~in their bed :0 Then we went to my parent's house. my mommy and travis nursed me back to health That night my daddys band was playing for a Hell's Angels Party so I wasnt allowed to go. We babysat again which was frustrating AGAIN. I thought Travis was gonna kill Dylan at one point. But it ended up alright. We stayed at my parents house that night and it was quite fun but we had to sleep on the floor again. Sunday we went to breakfast at my grandparents house and grandma made french toast (yummmmmmy). We went back and watched "28 days later" w/my parents. That movie SUCKED. Dont go see it or rent it or anything. Then we came back to raleigh and had a meeting about New Orleans. YAY! I am so excited about going. Today was a lazy day for me. I didnt go to class and I caught up on my sleep. I did make dinner however which was pretty good. So at least I did something.
Well, I hope everyone had a good holiday! I am going to bed so I can actually make it to class in the morning. Good night all.

~Lacey

p.s. Katrin ~ I'm sorry I made a grumpy face~you know you are the coolest friend. DUH!

SO! It has been pointed out to me by tabulas that I have minimal friends. K*rah is the only one I have If you be my friend, I'll be yours <-----see, that's me being friendly.

Last night was a blast. Matt and Larry left for the evening so me and TT had the whole house to ourselves We ate pzones (yummmm~pzones) and laid in bed and *cough cough* and watched Half Baked and.......... well, grownup stuff ANd then we went to bed super late which was NOT GOOD.
Today started out yucky. It was so cold when I woke up. I went and took a calculus test today and the teacher was super tricky and I ended up w/a 56. That is definetly no good. This whole college thing is beginning to get on my nerves.

Tomorrow I head back to Fayetteville. My grandparents won't be there ~ they are going to Ohio to see my aunt and such. BUT!!!!~this will be the first holiday that Travis and I will actually spend together. We have been dating for almost 3 years and we have never been together on Thanksgiving or Christmas. So that will be refreshing. I am very looking foward to seeing my family. They are the zaniest people on the planet. AND I get to go shopping Friday! YAY!!!! I love shopping for people~it is my favorite thing to do. My only downfall is that I have this bad habit of telling people early what their presents are I already got my mom her present and almost told her. I just get so excited.

Well, I am off to chill w/my homies so holla at ya girl
~Lacey
p.s. In case I don't update before Thanksgiving~ HAPPY THANKSGIVING, Be Careful, and DRIVE SAFE

Well, today went by so quick! I went to my 9:10 ~ aren't you proud of me? I turned in my stock portfolio as well. After that, I had a meeting to see if I can get my financial aid next semester and I probably can't. So I don't know where that leaves me.

But then me and Travis got McDonalds and went back to his house and layed in bed and watched the Price is Right and were silly. I love the Price Is Right and laughter cures what ails ya. And then I had to make a quick trip home so I got to see my mommy and daddy and brothers! I absolutely love my family. My daddy messed up and told me I'm getting a computer for Xmas. So that is pretty exciting but he wasnt supposed to tell me. Silly Daddy.

I got stuff for a scrap book and I have started working on that. I'm a sucker for stuff like that. I did have some fun looking through all my old stuff tho~ i had a few good laughs (drunked summer pics) and a few cries (I miss Reese) But my book is coming along well and I'm excited about it (nerd=me)

Well, that's it for today. Tune in tomorrow to see what exhilarating escapades I'll have

~Lacey

p.s. I LOVE these smiles~ I'm not used to having so many to choose from

SO.............I finally have one of these here journals. Aren't I the fancy one? too bad everyone else has had one for like......years! Oh well, maybe one day I can write super cool entries like everyone else.

Well, the Maryland game was yesterday. I hate losing. Almost as much as I hate Terapins. Me and Travis went out to Carter Finley like 3 hours early cuz we didnt have tickets. Luckily, there was a nice man who sold us two seats in the endzone~YAY! Our seats were awesome w/one exception~the Maryland band was right next to us. ANd they are annoying. The only ACC band that is more annoying is FSU's band. They played during EVERYTHING! I wanted to hear our band cuz they rock!

Then.........we came back here and chilled and what not. You know how we do Then I went to bed before everyone else cuz I am a nerd.

Today will be filled w/LOTS of projects and homework. But tonight I am cooking a huge dinner so that will be fun. I LOVE to cook! Especially for my Travis

Well.........how was THAT for my first entry?!?!?! I am quite impressed with myself.

That's all for now folks